Coming home from the art gallery with the piece of work which didn't make it into the Open Competition (I submitted 2) got me thinking about how we value ourselves and how important it is to feel positive about yourself.
Typically for me, my personal reaction when I received the phone call telling me that I'd got into Leamington Open, wasn't "oh, how wonderful" but immediately, "what's wrong with the other piece!" Of course rationality and perspective stepped in and I smiled at my dafter self.
But, it's an important point. How much of our success in life in whatever field relies on us feeling positive and good about ourselves? Melancholy is often given as a driving force for art, as is anger, sadness, grief, and jealousy, (among many) but underneath it all, I wonder if there's a layer of self worth cushioning the negative blows.
So, in the 10 minutes it took me to walk back from town, Life 17 was born. The Fragility of Self Worth. I know exactly what I want it to look like and I just need a willing model!! Don't you just love a "ping" moment?
What I also decided was that my painting is boring, and would be much better if I took more risks. Mitochondrial Roots marked the beginnings of this shift, and I now want to push on even further if I can.